Judaai - a poem for heart brokens

Zindagi bhi na jaane hamaara kaisa imtehaan leti hai
Jisse kari mohabbat wahi jaan leti hai
Uska chehra kabhi bhula nahi sakte
Aankhon se tasveer uski mita nahi sakte
Mohabbat hamaari ek adhoori kahani hai
Pyaar se juda hokar hamein zindagi bitaani hai
Us khuda se bas yehi sawaal karte hain,
Kyon hum apne yaar ko itna pyaar karte hain
Har galti gustaakhi ko uski hum maaf kar jaate hain
Apne hi aansu apni aankhon mein dabaa jaate hain
Kya kahein us paththar ki moorat se jisne yeh duniya banayi hai
Kyon hamari mohabbat ko humse door kar usne humse ki ruswaai hai
Shayad us khuda ko kabhi rona aata hoga
Kyonki bewafaai bhi duniya mein usi ki den se aayi hai
Uske azeez hote hue bhi usse door hain hum
Kya kahein kisse kahein hum apne yeh gum
Shayad inhi sab dukhon ke beech yeh duniya basti aayi hai
Kisi ke naseeb mein mohabbat hai aur kisi ke naseeb mein judaai hai

-- Written by Raveesh Malhotra on 12/10/2007 at 2.32AM

My New friends in US - They helped me in ways

It was one of the roughest phase of life;I was missing someone and I knew I was loosing her everyday and 2 of my friends had left and third one was leaving but then suddenly I found 2 new friends Lilangi Fernando alias Doctor Dimple(DD) and Sabarish Mahadevan alias Sabs. With these 2 people coming in my life, I guess my life took a new shape. When I would have been sitting all alone, these 2 guys revived my old days. They are zaelous, pragmatic and fun loving. All these qualities make them fit in my favorite friend's list. It all started that I went to their place and had my first party but acually my first party was when they invited me to their place for "Thanks giving Party". There I made a new friend, Claudia. Now, we became a gang of 5 - My roomie Ashish, DD, Sabs, Claudia and I. They played punjabi music and for the first time I really enjoyed dancing on a punjabi number in US. Then started my salsa classes on that day with my new teacher Claudia but any punjabi knows how bad we guys are at any other dance than Bhangra and I proved that once again to this world. Now, it was a time to go to Atlantic city, a place for gamblers and my parents are always against my wish of going to a casino. Now, its very difficult to explain them that this life itself is a very gamble and most of us loose in this. Let's leave this discussion because eventually I went to Atlantic city. Now, there once again we partied hard. These guys are really helping me rejuvenating my lost inner self. From past few months, life had taken lot of turns for me and I was just struggling to come out of it but this gang helped me to come out of it. I am returning to what I was? I was a humorist but was loosing it day by day till the time this gang came in my life. Last weekend it was NYC clubbing and I just regained back to my full momentum. DD and Sabs are just amazing persons to be with. Though Ashish is good but he sleeps too much( no hard feeling Ashish) and Claudia- she is also sweet ( after all I still need NYC pics from her.....LOL) and is the first foreigner that is so simple. I pay my gratitude towards her taciturnity but then that doesn't mean that I can ignore my other friends....... DD is a great human, very good friend and Sabs, the most simple guy of our generation( He doesn't even booze........) and a very nice adviser , when it comes to finding great deals on the net. Also, Sabs is the one who always keeps an eye on me when I am working, so no chances of fooling him around about how much I work.......
I pay my standing ovation to my this Gang, who made my life much better than what it was just a month back.........Thanks to my Gang and espcially to DD who made all this possible.............

My Thoughts on 26 July 2007

It is almost end of July 2007 and I feel that this month is coming out to be good for me so far. The things that happened in past in this month make me feel like so. I met one of my good friends in New York after a long time. The best part was that it was his birthday when we met. It was an amazing day, I was with one of my best friends but then the happiness is a relative term. I was happy and at the same time a bit sad. I was sad because I was away from someone very close to my heart......
It happens that this life gives you happiness for a short span of time and then suddenly snatches all it has given you......It keeps on throwing bombshells but one has to get used to them because you do not have any other option in dealing these astonishments......
When you get close to someone, just try to accept that tomorrow it can happen that the same person is not available for you ever in life again. It can happen overnight that you can be forced to live without that one person for the rest of life........
You may cry but then who's there to listen to you.......you may remember those good memories and tears will shed out of your eyes but ths is life dude and it keeps on challenging us........
The only thing that remains eternally is the feeling of your love deep inside of your heart for that one person for whom you would have put even your life at stake at some point of time.......
But love gives you an internal satisfaction and also the pain. its your own opinion to choose what you want to select out of these two things...............
For all those heart brkoens, we have some very nice hindi songs like Beete Lamhein from movie The Train, Kuch is Tarah by ATIF ASLAM but listening to all these songs will drown you in the sea of good memories you had in the past and you will only be left alone in this world. I believe in setting an example as far this term love is concerned. Love a person and just love her. Be there when she needs you and go out of her life when she is not alone. this is the true test of love and it has to be accepted by all the true lovers. Love can neverbe implied on anyone. it is Natural and very few people have the guts to accept it. Others are coward who do not have power to express their feelings to that one most important person of their life. Thus, I would summarize all this by saying just one line and that is Love someone and just love her. No matter you get her or not but just love her because its very difficult to find a true love and when you find it, it becomes more difficult to leave her. This is my pedagogy of Love and I know that I may be wrong.....

The Unanswered Questions

People say they are in love. They say that admiring a person is their life and name it love but do they actually know what this 4 letter word means. It means Liking Over Values with Emotions. Love is that eternal feeling that you develop for a person whom you respect, like her talks, like her thought process but at the same time it is a feeling which does not demand anything. Love comes in everyone's life but in different forms. Sometimes a person loves you but you do not like her just because she is not good looking but does looks matter? People say yes and I have a different opinion from them. It is the purity of the heart that matters and not this materialistic beauty. One needs to be beautiful from the bottom of her heart and not from the face.
Love is a feeling which makes you unfettered but at the same fettered. The pedagogy of love says that love should be one sided. You should be free enough to enjoy your life as you want but at the same time committed enough to stick to that one person. You find many people whom you like but does that mean that you love all of them?
Love gives you an opportunity but at the same time demands a lot of things in compromise. Does this mean that one should not love?
Sometimes, love leaves some bad memories but does that stop you from loving anyone else?
We should always be willing to love a person who cares for you but people are not ready to do the same; the reason is that they want beauty, they usually forget that in love target is search of a true soul and not the search of this temporary beauty.
There are some who find a true soul but they do not accept them just because they had a bad past. Does someone's bad experience overpower so much that she can not accept someone's true love also?

These are what I feel few unsanswered questions for which people wait their lifetime to get the answer but they remain clueless.